This page used to have a counter. I can not show you which one it was, because it stopped loading yesterday or the day before yesterday, slowing this page down to a crawl and really making me a bit sad. It actually made me sad before too. Just looking at the statistics for this particular page made me a little sad. The numbers were quite OK, that was not the problem, I also could see whenever one of my friends would hit the page. The counter also gave me a rough idea about where from and how people accessed this blog. What the counter gave me as well though, were these statistics. They were bar charts that showed me some sort of performance that I could increase by posting certain things on this page. And this is where it got really evil. When the little visitor bar got too short, I was assuming that it must be me and then I posted in order to post (more than once), not really in order to say anything. Oh, and certain things were better on certain days, and Fridays were usually pretty dead. Tuesdays were the best days for the blog. Looks like most of you came here on Tuesday around lunch.
I am so glad this thing just disappeared. I do not need some chart to tell me what to do. I feel more relaxed again. And I have no idea who you are, or where you come from, or when you come to visit. We still have the map, where you can leave a link of a picture to yourself. (All of you who have already... Wow... Thank you!) and there are still my regular stats (link removed) that come with the hosting and that tell me clearly that people who come here are often just interested in some really strange stuff. But that is OK. This is much more abstract than this other counter. This counter was a big deal, can you tell?
So now expect some more relaxed posts. Come here if you like. Come as often as you like. I will just keep writing here. Until I can not, for some reason. And things will be good.
Oh, feel free to comment at any time. Your email address is protected. (As long as you leave a URL too (any URL). (Movable type then does not make your email the link and it becomes visible only to me and not to some bots.)
So, no counter anymore. Now I count on you. (It does sound strange, doesn’t it?)
oh! I received one piece of spam rcently to the address I always leave here...I wondered where it might have come from..? (My first piece of spam ever at my domain : )
oh no...that is horrible. I will check the comments. In the mean time, let’s look for some spam filters for you.
ah...
the counter dilemma. I've been thinking of getting rid of mine lately, and not for the first time... it's fun, yet rather pointless, and it creates a weird dynamic.
zum Beispiel:
my partner is now my ex-partner. he is used to reading my blog, and it used to make me happy that he did so. but now I can see that he still reads it- and in fact he looks at it an awful lot, and it makes me uncomfortable.
I finally gave in to my incredibly childish urge to write something mean directed at him on the blog just this morning. I think I regret that.
so, if I get rid of the counter, then I don't have to see that he's reading it. I'm not sure it's ok to ask him to delete it from his bookmarks. maybe I'm being too neurotic about the whole verdammt thing.
Anything we write into the blog is somehow private and yet not. By removing all the counters and things we just assume that we are writing under a blanket and are by ourselves, at least in the process of writing. This can be quite liberating, I think and it can also bring a level of honesty into the writing that is not possible when there is a somehow measurable audience. Hmm... If somebody makes you write something into your blog even if you want to hurt them, then this means that they still decide about you. This is a bad situation. You are just hurting yourself there. Yeah, maybe remove the counter. And just keep writing in your own wonderful way.
: ) Nicht wahr?
stimmt ja, aber so einfach ist's leider auch nicht...
;)
true, I tend to simplify things too much sometimes. Sorry for that. I feel so much better now that I removed this counter thingy.
And there seem to be more comments now, which tells me that what i am writing is a bit more relevant. : ) yey...