Wrapped the blanket completely around my head and managed to filter out some of the car noise on broadway. I sometimes pretend that what I am hearing are waves of a violent ocean, pounding against the high coast. The house here placed on the edge of a cliff. The honking and the police syrens somehow disrupt this phantasy. The syrens could probably be monkeys. Little apes, calling for some love. there must be some reason why there are such similarities between the sounds.
I used to sleep with the earplugs in. Maybe for a night or two. It really did not work for me. The plugs would give me the feeling that my head was about to unfold in the morning, as if the pieces of my skull were like the petals of some bizarre flower. So the blanket works relatively well. I wrap it around my head, I look like a beduine… I turn off the lights and slowly glide into the darkness.
I have not drawn for a really long time. It is very depressing. I put the pen to the paper and it just does not want to draw. It does not work.
But I was called by Nylon magazine to illustrate something for them. (You can find the drawing in the next issue…) It was somehow funny to see that they would pick my very first sketch… not the one I spent days thinking about and hours drawing. They just liked the one I just jotted down…
About 12 years ago this would have made me think that I am a genius. Today it makes me think that my thinking is not really worth much… or that I think in circles or that what I think is thinking is not even that.
It is really somehow crazy how my mind is on an implosion trip…
okay, now this really is not very interesting… let’s move the camera over there and point it towards the trees.
See, much better now. Thousands of flowers attached to the branches, call for flying insets to have simulated sex. (or was it food… or both?)
And the fragrant haze embraces us and crawls into us and intoxicates us… just like music crawls into our ears and makes us hear its vibrations through many more parts of our body… just like little melodies straighten out a mess of thoughts and put many of them onto the right kind of track…
Some sounds take a bite out of the thought process we have…
Another monkey sound just cruised by the window… another wave hit the cliffs, another seagull called somebody’s name.
I will not listen to music now… I will probably go to sleep…
oh, below is the not selected illustration… the chosen one will be in the upcoming issue of Nylon Magazine (yes, I know… I mentioned it before)… it is a fun independent magazine… get yourself a copy… I am amazed and very thankful that they asked me to do something for them… will it ever happen again?